When I selected The Artist’s Way as the April pick for the Fullove book club, I knew it would be challenging. After all, I consider myself to be someone who is always up for a challenge, which is why I have actively opened myself up to differing viewpoints for as long as I can remember.
What I did not expect, however, was how hard it would be to finish the book in the first place. This is where the real challenge came along. Despite this book having come highly recommended, I had heard from others that it was hard for them to finish. Nonetheless, I did not think that this would apply to me. I always finish my books.
Call it determination or stubbornness, I pride myself in being someone who always finishes what she starts. When I put my mind to something, you can bet that I will see it all the way through. If I am being totally honest, however, I have been challenged in this area of my life more recently, which is why I selected consistency as this month’s theme in the first place.
Finishing what you start is not the same as consistency. In my own life, I have found that I can be so determined to finish something that I get tunnel vision and no longer show up consistently in other areas of my life. One of my key objectives in reading The Artist’s Life was to take.
Isn’t it ironic that the issue that prompted me to pick up the book in the first place is the same one that interfered with me reading it? The universe has a sense of humor.
Around week 4, I lost total interest. I started to pick up other books. Just because I have not finished this book in my usual timeline does not mean that I will not finish it eventually. And if I never finish this book, that is okay, too. There is a lesson in everything, and I have to trust that I have gotten everything that I need from the chapters that I have read as it is applicable to my life right now.
As someone who believes she has really solid habits, I could look at this, get upset with myself, or simply acknowledge that I still have a ways to go with my own level of consistency. Consistency in this case may just mean reading less of the book at once and over a longer period of time. And that’s okay.
I’m not saying I have to force myself to read the book, but it does mean that I owe myself the time to acknowledge why it is that I haven’t finished. Is this my intuition saying I’m not ready for it and it’s simply not the right time OR is it my ego getting in the way and keeping me from playing large - from reaching my full potential?
Only you can answer that for yourself. So if you have and you haven’t finished the book, congratulate yourself, pinpoint where you are on the journey, and keep moving forward.